Feel a bit strange to myself

Look like I had change.
Before I was more boyish.
Unconsciously,
girlish things with me become more and more,
and the most surprise part is,
I like them!
Feel strange.
Why I will change?
Because of the age or because of the surrounding?

I need rest

Every time when a work was ending or going to end, I was so happy! Not because of the works was nice, just becasue of it was end!!!!!

I wish FYP pass faster, art law exam pass faster, and sems-break come faster!!!!! Can I just skip the FYP and exam and straight to the holidayssSSSS????

我不配

《主你为何》词曲：唐崇荣

亲爱的主 你为何 爱我卑微罪人？
离开尊贵天家降下 诞生在人世间
亲爱的主 你为何 甘受贫寒轻慢
我的心永不明白 你奇妙的大爱
亲爱的主 你为何 被挂在木头上
遍体鳞伤 鲜血淋漓 亲身还我罪债
都是为我 都是为我 这悖逆的羔羊
我岂能 岂能忘怀 你其妙的大爱
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主啊！你为何？你何苦？真的！你何苦。
我是这样的一个人！我岂能自欺？
我知道我有多可恶！
没有人看到的地方，我的恶，岂能瞒过全知的神？
然而，神，你为什么爱我？
我如此痛恨犯罪的自己。
圣洁的神，你赦免我的罪。
我像一个杀人犯，想尽办法消灭我犯罪的证据，
却发现，我什么也不用做，
那个被我杀的人已经向所有人说，我是无罪的。
！！！！我怎么配？

Jesus, why?
Why love me?
I am a sinner.

Where I can hide my sin from Thee?
I know how evil is me.
Why love me?

Holy God love and save lowly me.

stalking

Definition of stalking

stalking is a very skillful,technical art. At the same time, it always torment self heart.

Outing to Le Vain

Uncertainty

Doubt myself.

Doubt my ability.
I can't make a best design.
I only like physic in science.
I only like chinese in language.
What should I do?
What can I do?

Doubt my personality.
I do whatever my friends asked.
I kind?
Or just because I do not care?
So many thing I do not care.
So I do for you without discuss or debate.

Dislike myself.
Like myself.
Confuse...

envy to the girl will not fat

envy to girl who eat much but will not fat...
however,
don't try to stop me when i want to eat!

半夜.阳台.风景

  近来天气闷热，已经连续多日在半夜被焖醒，今夜又是不眠之夜。

  睡不着。真睡不着。不想勉强自己，在心中想了一串家乡的好味，还是从床上爬起来，到阳台上去。原本只是想到阳台贪凉，不知不觉却被阳台前的风景吸引。

  我矮墩墩的，阳台的护栏正好能托着我的双臂，整个人靠在上面，也不用用什么力气。屋外的空气冰凉，我的肌肤刷过微微流动的凉气。为什么房间里的空气都比较高温？

  阳台斜对面的远处是双峰塔，就算在半夜还是一闪一闪闪着光。夜空里的白云反射城市的灯光，昏黄，一如围着我所住的公寓的路灯。路灯橙黄，在红专地上照出诡异的影子。

  阳台近处正对面，是建筑工人安歇之处。是在一片空旷的沙地上用木板与铁片搭的简陋房子。很难想象建筑工人是怎么在这种可怖的房子里休息。我甚至怀疑那几栋正方形的东西是否可称为房子。白天大辆大辆的罗厘进出，总是飞沙走石；夜晚却静得像荒凉许久的地方。工人也是可敬的。双手与头脑都一样重要。

  动脑不动手，那叫发白日梦。
  动手不动脑，那叫有勇无谋。

Girl's assignment time

大家围在宽大的桌子旁，一边听着电台广播一边动手做着设计。

天空的颜色从正门和旁边的窗子投了进来，时而茶色、时而亮黄，偶尔还有赤橙色。

少女的欢笑声无法刻画。

桌子上摆了好多色彩缤纷的设计，却没有一副比得上少女脸上的神采。

We sitting beside the big table, enjoying the DJ's sound from radio and doing design.
The colour of sky cross inside from the door and window.
Tea clour, brightly yellow and reddish orange.

The mirth of girls cannot record in material form.
There are colourful design on the table. However, none of them can compare with the girls' expression.

My cordial friend

My cordial friend, thank you!

Yesterday was dumpling day. Our gang discussed about various flavour of dumpling. However, people like me who stay in hostel and did not back home town had no dumpling to eat!

I kept complain, flighty and entreat. And one of my friend msg me in the night and told me she will bring a dumpling which is my favorite flavour today!!! She is so kind and care for her friend! Thank you!

Feel sad, because I mind

The friends who not very close but still good, not bad to you are the most trouble one.
Cannot scold, cannot fight.

Not close friends or even not familiar friends, you can straightly "kill" them.
%  kill = means scold them, kick them out......

Close friends, you will rather die for them.

The friends not very close but also not very strange, are trouble.

Be independence

Be independence, don't feel yourself is weak and pity. If you think you are pity, then you are really pity.

No one owe you in this world. The world does not owe you too. Spend the time to solve the problems better than spend the time on blaming.

Girl too strong is not cute. I know. I asked myself before to be not so staunch. However, I hate meself that changing because of others. Why should I change for others?

If this lead me to be lonely, then that is my chosen. May be I will regret, but it is the thing I should worry after some years. Now, just let me be myself, enjoy who am I.

Fall in Love

Fall in LOVE to that guy...with his cello.

Went to an orchestra tonight. Erm... not really an orchestra, I means not symphony orchestra, but I categorize it in the subcategories of orchestra. Whatever. My English not good enough to explain and describe this performance.

There is a guy who played cello in this concert. His expression was so serious but at the same time soft too when he was playing his cello. His face just beside the top of his cello just like lean against the cello. Just gave a feeling like the cello was his partner! So lovely!

Girl is uncontrolled

Girl is uncontrolled.

We know ice-cream cause fat. We know brand products make us poor. We know cry is useless. We know  good-looking cannot maintain forever.

However, we eat BR, Haegen. We buy the cloths. We cry. We take good care of our looking.

Girl is uncontrolled. That's why girl is more horrible than guy. Guy mind their reputation. They do not curse loudly whatever they are get super angry. Girl will shout wherever they are, as long as the person in front of her is the right person.