I'm not

I'm not that stupid.
I know you don't like me.
From your eyes,
from what you said,
I know you don't want to be closer to me.

I'm not that clever.
I don't know how to be a good friend.
I don't know how to let you know, actually I care of you.
I don't know how to say something interesting.
But I still hope to be more friendly and closer to you.

I'm not that weak.
I still want to be friend to you even though you hate me.

I'm not that strong.
Sometime I will hide myself and cry.