Youth are always fans for fast food.

 On the way to back hometown, alone, with long skirt and a take away scone.

 

A corner of university college.
A nice morning.

The day going to have exam. And,
I didn't bring pen.
Spent money to buy pencil and sharpener on the spot.

Chatime and Kinokuniya.
 Satisfied.

The "fast food" in our uni-college.
Save so many uni students' stomach when rushing to class.

Path way to class.
This is Malaysia's specialize, surround by green.

The heart feel for love

They are all so cute.

The guy who with pink chic when his "her" is there.

The girl who nervous for every detail of her "him".

They are all innocent and cute and sweet.

And, I do not have my "him".

I am not feeling lonely. I am really happy for my friends who have so deep feeling of love in their young time.

Just may be I am too childish (or too old) to feel for the feeling. I am curious too, for the day, how I would think of a guy every time.
Mood swing for him.
Think of him.
Guess what he is thinking.
Want to share to him.

... ...

Too shy to say

Got many thing to tell. Wish to say thank you, wish to apology, wish to tell you how much I appreciate you. But, I am too shy. Too shy to tell you that. My tongue become so clumsy and my brain is lack of words when I want to say that.

Thank you, I really appreciate you appear in my life.

Thank you God put you all in my life.

Year 3 of Degree

Addicted to one guy's posts on Instagram.

I never addicted to Wifi. However, this times, I cough every chance to connect to Wifi, on Insta to just see his latest post.

His posts had bring me so many inspiration, thank you.

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Anywhere, new sems had started for two weeks. It's do tiring. I don't means that I don't like it or it's boring. It's just because it is so meaningful and make me want to be serious with it, so make me so tiring. 

I feel like want to challenge new thing. I not aim for high score, I just want to challenge myself to see how am I thinking. What is my limitation? How this help me?

And, all of this, not to prove my ability, not to proud of myself. It is for to help me have a better way of thinking and let me be more serious and responsible to my life.

I likes my friends. Sure I likes them. Just...I could not integrate into them. We share different values, habits, and hobbies.

"You need to come out from your shell."

I knew it. But it is very hard when I don't want to be like them. I am so scare that I will be transform or at least affect by them. I don't know what I will become...

But they still nice person.

21 years old

21 years old.

I have come to 21 years old today. 21. So fast. Yes, I can't wait for it until today, but I still feel it is so fast to drawn here.

I think I really become old. I don't want to celebrate or hang out with friend today. Alone at home, reading, imaging, receive a lot of blessing from friends via internet and phone is good enough.

Thank you for all the blessings It make me feel I have been loved and care from so many people. Thank you.

Hi, 21.

Bye 20.

It is a new starting for me.

Closer and closer to God because God loves me and knows me first.

My sunglasses

My first sun glasses, my sis bought it for me.

Is iron material and in sea green colour.

I love it~

My sister said before: who look nice while wearing sunglasees means their eyes are not look good.

And this year birthday, she gave me this...

I get what you means, I think...

谨守

从信仰研讨大会回来，真的有许多的学习和反省。在生活上要更谨慎地检验自己。

一直以来都忽略圣灵的动工。虽然嘴上没说，但是心里会想“我理解能力还真不错”，能够明白并接受纯正的道理。我根本忽略了若不是神的恩典，若不是神先爱人、怜悯人，没有人能得救。

另外，也看见若不是以圣经为基础，人真的能提出千万种千奇百怪的看法、姿态去处理信仰的去处理逼迫。但是到根本，其实只有两条路，不是顺服神就是违背甚至背叛神。

圣经是权威，归正，回到圣经。

我是认真的，不是因为营会而一时的热忱。在大学的确多次的面对许多小小的试探。非信徒朋友说看我面像就是个会聚财的，以后会很有钱。我很肯定地告诉他们，一定不会，因为若神赐个我多于我所需的，那一定是神要用到，是要奉献给神使用的。在大学认识了在设计界有一定资历及地位的教授，告诉了我们当设计师的各种好处，甚至是进入高级社会、月入百万的真实情况。感谢神，圣灵在我心中动工，我谨记，我是奉献给神的，我的好处不在神以外，顺服神不顺服人是应当的。

June's conclusion

The restaurant below my appartment, "That Place La".

Their carrot cake is just nice for the price! And, the boss is always kind. Sometime will get some free food.

Small space, but just nice to let you sit with one or two of your good friends.

不要迷恋姐，姐只是一个传说。 =w=

Don't admire me, I am a legend.

June, I learned to enjoy simple things with little bit changing of the environment, or may be should say, changing the viewing point.

I was a girl quiet lively, noisy. But I found out, I quiet enjoy silent. And, may be you cannot believe, I enjoy sitting with my friends but talk nothing. We can enjoy the surrounding, the food, the music together, and it is not awkward.

Hei, I joined basketball society for few weeks. I must say, I like it so much. Not only like to play basketball, but the people in the society are also quiet nice. Friendly and funny. The coach is also gentle and funny!

Important Days

20February2014
12:27am
Win one time from Bun

25March2014
11:08pm
First time PG praise

不会说出口

最近很喜欢一个漫画《堀与宫村》，（Horimiya）。

漫画里有一个配角，名字叫吉川由纪。这个女生，很爽朗。但是，她真正想得到的东西，却绝对不会轻易说出口。心里想的“喜欢”、“想要”也绝对不会说出口。所以，由纪喜欢的东西大多离她去了。

我也是。绝对不会轻易让别人知道。因为害羞。因为没有勇气。因为没有与别人争夺的自信。不想说出来。如果是要自己努力争取的，那样又能守护至多久呢？该是我的，就算不用我说，也会在我身边的。

因为这样别扭的性子，我的母亲一定受了很多苦吧？ 每次想要母亲关怀宠爱的时候，只会默默等待而不是主动告诉她我的需要、隐忍。如果没有实现我的愿望，又会生闷气不理人。这样一想，我的母亲该是多么委屈，竟然忍受了我那么多年。

最近，开始在意一个男生。因为在意，所以留意。因为这样注视着他，发现了他喜欢的女生。然后我的第一个反应是，给他更多接触那女生的机会。

我真的是一个连争取也懒惰的人。或者，我根本没有被疼爱的自信。总觉得，没有人会喜欢我的。被照顾了，会觉得不好意思。

也不会去怪别人，根本就是自己的性子有点扭曲。反而担心给别人添了不少麻烦吧？呵呵，就是这样不讨喜呢……

“反正对我来说，应该不会很重要吧？”

“我可能没有想象中那么喜欢吧？”

“没关系的，我还有其他东西。”

这些下意识的想法什么时候才会离我远去？

My lazy & leisure days

My friend, Amanda snap my weird face and edit for me, and, it become the photo i got the most "like" on fb.

Me and Amada wearing jeans today!

God knows the best.

God knows the best.

I didn't think that my family is a perfect family before. I don't have a rich family. My family need to plan very well for the money. (That's why my family members very good in mathematics? XD) I have a father who always nagging. I have a mother who always disturb me when I am busy. I have a brother who always assign me to do household duties. I have a sister who same size with me, and we need to share all our thing together.

However, I think they are the only people who can bear my temper (hot and impulse temper) when living with me in a small space. My father likes to buy junk food for me, and he only flighty to me (=^o^=). My mother said, "How should I live if one day you leave me". My brother is that one tries to calm down when we all are in an argue. My sister is that one helps every family members attack the enemy.

God knows the best. He put us in a family that is the best for each of us. It's very easy for us to examine the sins on our family members and also ourselves too. And of course the family members also help us to realize our sins. Grace of God is enough for every believers.

And now, I would say, my family is the best family, because God creates it.

My father is the one train me to pray, wherever I am.

My mother is the one bring me to church, teach me love my church by her own model.

And there are many people appear in my life. God have His willing on them and me.

Thank you God, He always have His own mercy everywhere in my life. Thank you God for my family.

Come back from camp

Came back from camp and I am sick. Thanks God that let me served God in the camp. I was not a faithful servant, please train me to be faithful to God.

High heel and Coffee

Wearing a pair of high-heel, went to have coffee with my dear sister. She had a cold one; mine is hot.

Read my note there. And, I found out, I quite enjoy the surrounding. I almost spend all my holiday in home. I should have some walk or outing.

不按我的行为

天父 上帝：
我要赞美祢，称谢祢。
祢的旨意必定成就。
祢必按祢的慈爱怜悯恩待祢的仆人。
奉主耶稣基督的名祷告，阿门。

Girls together

 My 38Gang girls had a gathering at Rawang. Had a tea time with them. Different girls, different style, different taste.

Wish we can spend our ages together until we be old. And, I wish I can lead or bring both of you go in front of God. wish both of you get the salvation in mercy of God.

Yellow and Black

Yellow and black, a sharp combination.

The story of my slipper.

Yes, the colours is contrast and drag people attention. And, a cutie child asked me, "why are your slippers different?"

While I was thinking how to explain this is a design to a 5years old child, the child's father answered, "She wear wrong slippers."

Good. You win.

I really love it ya~yellow and black.

The Failing

I really met a lot of failings recently. I was upset, frustrated and even scare for them.

In this holidays, my brain like stop working. I always could not think and remember. It affected so much on my bible study. I just could not get any input while I was studying. I could not understand when I listened the preaches.

Last Sunday, a children fell down while playing the game which me and another teacher designed. And the snacks I prepared as the prizes were expired.

I just could not do any thing right. I don't know why. I thought my brain was spoil. I was frustrated, and, I was scare.

God is with me, thank you. He console me. And, He teaches me, nothing I can do well if I do not rely on Him.

God, I trust You. Wisdom come from You. God, I pray to You to except all my arrogant, and let me depend on You, trust You and rest in You. Lest me worry or frustrated. Make me obey You and worship You. I pray with Jesus Christ's name, Amen.

Burger in a storm

It is raining now, and the rain is SUPER heavy.In this moment, I feel like want to eat Burger... No one wish to leave from home and go into the storm. But I really want to eat a burger with cheese.

Actually the weather is nice, for me...at least the wind is nice, right?

So, could anybody pick me up for a fast food dinner?

... ...

Actually it's quite meaningless to write this here because no one will respond here. I know I should post this on facebook or twitter, more people put attention on that. But I don't think there are people ac crazy as me want to go out in this weather. There are some I know they willing to come out with me, one is at French now, another at Serdang.

I miss them.

Cannot think.

The cloud is heavy, it's so thick. The sky is grey but I still can see the gold colour on the leave. I cannot find where the sun light come from. The contrast give a unreal feeling. The scenery like in fairy tales. There is a moment, I really doubt myself that I am still inside dream. May be it's time to take a snap. However, I just feel it's waste of time.

I have very long time do not use my brain probably. I do not keep on thinking to find the solution for my doubts. I cannot find out the reason. What is there deep in my heart that make me so worry. I can't make my heart quiet for think.

What is the problem?

 I will have some times to solve this after I posted this post.

My working space

Hello~ this is the corner for me when I am at my lovely sweet home. The books I like is just beside my desk, the right hand side there. And there is a lightning purposely for the book worm who is me.

Ok, it's a bit messy (are you sure it's only a bit?). But I really like this working space. The living room is at the left hand side. My mom watching television while I am doing my work. When I am tired, I just go to her and hug her.

Semester break

And, finally, it comes to semester break. I really don't want to experience or recall one more time the rushing moment just before the holidays. Hi, holiday, I have come!

Holidays. The days that no need try hard to open eyes for afraid miss any thing that lecturer state. The days that can wear a simple big t-shirt and walk around in home. The day that no need comb my curly hair and tight it.

Started my relaxing moment with my "non-image" dear friend. Had a tea time with her.

Coursemates had plan a trip to Pulao Ketam. Sorry, I could not join. There are too much of things for me to read during this holiday. I love to stay at home and read them. I had spend the whole semester, 3 months, with you all. So, let me stay at my lovely home, with my dear family and books together.

My cuttie mom buy a new sofa. She was so excited for it. She was jumping, singing the whole morning while waiting the workers send the sofa came to our house. Yes, I granted that the sofa is nice.

I am still in holiday. It's like I can't wait for what will happen next day. Excited for every morning and enjoy sleeping without a stressful alarm every night.

同来加冕生命之王

同来加冕生命之王， 荣耀都归给你；
恐我忘记主荆棘冕，领我到加略山。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

求主示我埋你坟墓，你为我尝死味；
愿像天使身穿白衣，看守主在坟墓。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

我真甘心我真情愿，背十字架跟主；
我愿与主同尝苦杯，领我到加略山。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

King of my life I crown Thee now- Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn-crowned brow, Lead me to Calvary.

Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid, Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

May I be willing, Lord, to bear Dailt my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share - Thou hast borne all for me.


Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

Repentance from Wasting Time

God Father,
I have sin which is wasting time.
And the wasting time is because of my laziness, and,
I did not devote all mine to God.
I am selfish and arrogant.
I want to plan for myself, decide "my own" business.
I said I am servant of You, but,
I even did not obey You in the small little thing.
God, I am Your child and servant.
I pray to You for forgiveness for all my sin.
Please change me according Your will for glory of God.
Make me obey you but not myself.
I pray with Jesus Christ's name, A-Men.

Broga with RCC Young Aldult fellowship

Enjoyed climbing at Broga with RCC Young Aldult Fellowship early in the morning at 5++a.m.

It was a very memorable experience. 

Not about the climbing but the fellowship and interaction with the young people.

Out of expected, the young people who were first joined us were so open minded and friendly.

Above is my brother and me~~Do we look alike?

We car ool to went there. These who same car with me.
The pretty yellow shirt girl was so funny. I don't know what's wrong between both of us, we just couldn't stop laughing in the car for all the interaction between all of us.
Ya, the blue shirt guy a bit shy and quiet~
Thank you for the guy who was driving that agreed to drive immediately when we asked for it.

THANK YOU GOD for protected and took care the whole journey.

Rushing in a Good Day

The sun is good.

The wind is good.

A nice day for an afternoon snap/

And, I am,

Rushing assignment.

So Good.


P.s. Thank you for the white car that let me pass through the horrible road. This make my day.

Cousin Wedding

What? You looking for the beautiful girl with pure white wedding dress?
Sorry, because I am protecting the copyright of my pretty cousin's photo, I will not post it XD
She really look so nice!!!
Is it real that every bride is the most beautiful women in the world?
Of course the groom look handsome too!
Wish their family will always in joy.

Oh ya, by the way, the photo above is me, my sister and our little sweety cousin~ <3



And below are the weird me and my beautiful sister~
We look a like but we are totally in different style.