The Failing

I really met a lot of failings recently. I was upset, frustrated and even scare for them.

In this holidays, my brain like stop working. I always could not think and remember. It affected so much on my bible study. I just could not get any input while I was studying. I could not understand when I listened the preaches.

Last Sunday, a children fell down while playing the game which me and another teacher designed. And the snacks I prepared as the prizes were expired.

I just could not do any thing right. I don't know why. I thought my brain was spoil. I was frustrated, and, I was scare.

God is with me, thank you. He console me. And, He teaches me, nothing I can do well if I do not rely on Him.

God, I trust You. Wisdom come from You. God, I pray to You to except all my arrogant, and let me depend on You, trust You and rest in You. Lest me worry or frustrated. Make me obey You and worship You. I pray with Jesus Christ's name, Amen.

Burger in a storm

It is raining now, and the rain is SUPER heavy.In this moment, I feel like want to eat Burger... No one wish to leave from home and go into the storm. But I really want to eat a burger with cheese.

Actually the weather is nice, for me...at least the wind is nice, right?

So, could anybody pick me up for a fast food dinner?

... ...

Actually it's quite meaningless to write this here because no one will respond here. I know I should post this on facebook or twitter, more people put attention on that. But I don't think there are people ac crazy as me want to go out in this weather. There are some I know they willing to come out with me, one is at French now, another at Serdang.

I miss them.

Cannot think.

The cloud is heavy, it's so thick. The sky is grey but I still can see the gold colour on the leave. I cannot find where the sun light come from. The contrast give a unreal feeling. The scenery like in fairy tales. There is a moment, I really doubt myself that I am still inside dream. May be it's time to take a snap. However, I just feel it's waste of time.

I have very long time do not use my brain probably. I do not keep on thinking to find the solution for my doubts. I cannot find out the reason. What is there deep in my heart that make me so worry. I can't make my heart quiet for think.

What is the problem?

 I will have some times to solve this after I posted this post.

My working space

Hello~ this is the corner for me when I am at my lovely sweet home. The books I like is just beside my desk, the right hand side there. And there is a lightning purposely for the book worm who is me.

Ok, it's a bit messy (are you sure it's only a bit?). But I really like this working space. The living room is at the left hand side. My mom watching television while I am doing my work. When I am tired, I just go to her and hug her.

Semester break

And, finally, it comes to semester break. I really don't want to experience or recall one more time the rushing moment just before the holidays. Hi, holiday, I have come!

Holidays. The days that no need try hard to open eyes for afraid miss any thing that lecturer state. The days that can wear a simple big t-shirt and walk around in home. The day that no need comb my curly hair and tight it.

Started my relaxing moment with my "non-image" dear friend. Had a tea time with her.

Coursemates had plan a trip to Pulao Ketam. Sorry, I could not join. There are too much of things for me to read during this holiday. I love to stay at home and read them. I had spend the whole semester, 3 months, with you all. So, let me stay at my lovely home, with my dear family and books together.

My cuttie mom buy a new sofa. She was so excited for it. She was jumping, singing the whole morning while waiting the workers send the sofa came to our house. Yes, I granted that the sofa is nice.

I am still in holiday. It's like I can't wait for what will happen next day. Excited for every morning and enjoy sleeping without a stressful alarm every night.

同来加冕生命之王

同来加冕生命之王， 荣耀都归给你；
恐我忘记主荆棘冕，领我到加略山。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

求主示我埋你坟墓，你为我尝死味；
愿像天使身穿白衣，看守主在坟墓。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

我真甘心我真情愿，背十字架跟主；
我愿与主同尝苦杯，领我到加略山。

使我莫忘记客西马尼，使我莫忘主之痛苦，
使我莫忘主爱为我，领我到加略山。

King of my life I crown Thee now- Thine shall the glory be;
Lest I forget Thy thorn-crowned brow, Lead me to Calvary.

Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

Show me the tomb where Thou wast laid, Tenderly mourned and wept;
Angels in robes of light arrayed Guarded Thee whilst Thou slept.

Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

May I be willing, Lord, to bear Dailt my cross for Thee;
Even Thy cup of grief to share - Thou hast borne all for me.


Lest I forget Gethsemane, Lest I forget Thine agony,
Lest I forget Thy love for me, Lead me to Calvary.

Repentance from Wasting Time

God Father,
I have sin which is wasting time.
And the wasting time is because of my laziness, and,
I did not devote all mine to God.
I am selfish and arrogant.
I want to plan for myself, decide "my own" business.
I said I am servant of You, but,
I even did not obey You in the small little thing.
God, I am Your child and servant.
I pray to You for forgiveness for all my sin.
Please change me according Your will for glory of God.
Make me obey you but not myself.
I pray with Jesus Christ's name, A-Men.